i wish i could give up, i do i do i do

i guess there's hope

i guess there's still her

i guess i can still try again,
still

win after all this.

but why

cant i just have a clearer head.

why cant i ever ever take

a break?

break.

i need to feel something

that makes it all worth it.
but that
doesn't seem likely,
it doesn't seem plausible,

it doesn't seem like i can stop hoping
(though).