if its not getting what i want then what is it? (a quest for happiness)

she is the most beautiful woman i have ever seen, she is
the most beautiful woman i have ever met
her selfless radiance shines like the noonday sun
and every passing bird recognizes her captivating reflection
her nervousness and those feelings she gets
when she thinks no one is listening,
i am scared of those feelings too, i really am
there are no words to describe the screaming silence all around
when you look at a wonderful girl you once knew and her pretty bare shoulder is shrugged, her beautiful back is turned from you

and sometimes the only feeling i know, oh god of my father
is utter helplessness. i have no answers, you know my heart
you know that i have sought to please You, oh wonderful and glorious God that you are
You know that i seek to worship none but You, none, oh God, none
please teach me Your ways, I didn't know that loving You was so hard
what should i do, oh what should i do
i love you, you give me peace
please do your work, oh my god
please do your work, i will trust you
i have nothing else to do, i have nothing else i want to do
i give this wholly to you,
please take it from me
and grant peace
to us