artist in all of us, dying to be

i can't complain, really, it's all been good

sometimes i feel like, what i really need to be is, well-rounded.

which is why i am constantly being held back from hitting it off real well in any direction at all
but i keep getting called back, to work on something else.
i'm learning how to be a strong, supportive individual, who puts others' needs first, and wants to obey Christ most of all. but what about

that thing that i was afraid to lose, that fire
can i have that and be wise, too? i wish i knew
although i think sometimes i do
i promise myself that i do

but if i have to choose, between, being sane, and being insane, if i could only choose one or the other, if i couldn't have it both ways,

it's like i said,

it's her i choose.


and i don't regret anything i've done, not really. because i love me. or, what He's done with me, as i've chased. i only wish that it made more sense right now, that i knew what the next years held
but then i hear his voice, telling me just to slow down and watch, he is doing it all right,
and then i hear his smile, and then i feel like this again
and i so much love being his.